It hurts but its fine.

Some people feel I shouldn’t talk about it but I really want to pour my heart out. Just ended a five years relationship, I have been trying to make it work with all my strength but you can’t just force some things to be. Am just not lucky I guess, most of the guys I have dated didn’t respect my loyalty. It hurts alot. But it better to deal with yourself instead of tryna force a relationship to be. I am wondering if i was already married to this guy already what would’ve happened? A peaceless home? That’s not my dream for marriage. The least I could get in my marital home is peace. Is there a perfect man out there? Just wondering.